I want to be at peace with every single decision I have made & will make.
I want to feel, as I kiss my children goodnight, that I have loved & guided them.
I want to feel, at the end of the day, that I have been loving, supportive & appreciative of my husband.
I want to feel I'm an individual while being the piece that fits perfectly to complete the puzzle that is my sisters, my brother, my parents, my family.
I want to feel, either in the midst of a crisis or fits of laughter, that I am a friend to those girlfriends I am lucky to have in my life.
I want to feel satisfied, fulfilled, excited, motivated, & above all else...happy!
There will be no more paddling upstream...
Ruthless...
In my quest to 'feel' all of these wonderful things, I decided that I was going to start with the very heart of me. My home.
So despite the fearful looks from my husband & children, I got to work on my home & did a week & a half long cull & organise.
I had a motto. If I didn't love it & I didn't use it, it's gone. Some things went to the bin, others to charity. I even managed to pass on school items, craft items, toys & general stuff to those around me.
What a feeling of satisfaction that was!!! How very cleansing!
I've been spending some time with my friends & I've been spending some time with MM & sometimes its just me & BB. I've been playing with my new camera ( my class to learn how to use it to its full potential is tomorrow night ). I've been reading, meditating, singing, dancing, laughing, listening, baking, supporting, appreciating & an all round fine tuning of my life.
Forget the fat...
I have decided, after lots of thinking, to change the name of my blog...again!!!
I have decided to drop the fat(literally). By focusing on my extra weight, I keep it here! By focusing on all the fabulous things about myself & my life (just by looking around with a different mind set) I am discovering I don't 'need' the fat. It has served it's purpose & that purpose is no longer here.
By believing that food is my friend & that my body knows how to metabolize the foods that I eat, I give myself the freedom to live my life as I want to. Guilt free!
By choosing to experience all these fabulous things on a daily basis, I now want to move, I want to nourish my body & I want to feel fit, healthy & free!
This, I believe, is the best way to get there.
I'm no longer going from fat to fabulous. I found fabulous!!!
From here...
From here on in, my blog is going to be about the positive aspects of my life. My daily routine's, my children, my husband, my family, my friends, my passions, my interests, my hurdles (that can always be overcome)my changing outlook, my changing body & my journey......downstream!
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